I don’t know if I’m seeming a bit broken record like with these but I was just so lost last year and scared and I don’t want to relive those emotions but I can’t let myself forget them either. I felt like I was drowning and I refused to acknowledge it. And I’m still scared sometimes, especially when I tell someone in my real life about how I feel. But somehow just releasing it into the virtual makes it easier to have the confidence to talk about the things I consider dark and scary. I can’t forget that I’m the person that felt these things, but I don’t want to be the person that feels the need to find it.
“If I am honest I am sad a lot lately and everything is starting to really feel pointless and sometimes hopeless. I don’t feel excited about anything and I am just really tired of everything lately. There are so more back of my mind things but over all these are the biggies, so maybe I should stop thinking of the shame and get thinking about talking to a doctor or someone.”