According to the dictionary (and yes, oddly enough there actually is a dictionary definition) a Junk Drawer is:
- Noun: A drawer designated for the storage of various miscellaneous, small, occasionally useful items
For me, when I think junk drawer I think the place where I store the things I can’t find a place for and that is what this is. I have all these thoughts and opinions and feelings bonking around in my head and I don’t know where to put them, or in some cases, I’m too scare to admit to my world. But this page has become my outlet for those things. So for those who are interested, knows the time for an introduction type ‘get to know me.’
I’m a 1995 girl that is currently in university in sciences and have absolutely no idea what future holds for me, which is terrifying. I use to consider myself as a very basic, one-dimensional person but I’m starting to realize how completely wrong that is. I’m actually more complex than I ever considered. This blog (along with some poetry, fanfiction and short stories) has become one the ways I’m exploring my different selves.
I use to think I had a clear view of who I am and what I wanted but as time goes on I’m learning I’m much more confused about myself and the world. I have chosen to try and discover parts of me that I may have ignored because I didn’t think they worked with the image I had of myself or the kind of future I believed I wanted. I don’t want to do that anymore though, I want to learn who I am beyond want I use to think was okay.
I like to write. I found that writing has awoken a more creative side to me, which is a bit of a contradiction to my more scientific normal life. But it’s I something that I want to explore, that I enjoy exploring really. It’s the thing that lets me express myself in a way that I’m normally too terrified to, and I’m starting to realize I shouldn’t be.
A confession I have is that I have depression, or well I’m on antidepressants, I don’t really know how the label would fit on me but I am working through it and day-by-day I’m returning to a good point I thought I had long since forgotten.